151st post! :O

To Lesley: This is another wonderful example of stop-motion... makes me ALMOST want to buy an Olympus Pen. :P



Late post is insanely late. I actually started on this post about last week, but then a bunch things came and rolled over me. Ah well. So I deleted whatever I had written previously, and yeah. heres the 151st post vr 2!

Thank you to all those who gave me support via my tagboard! Im much better now, thank you. I'm a lot less angry, and am currently a lot happier. I guess its just growing pains. People are coming and going, and its been a bit tiring trying to keep to to a pace in life that I despised. But theres not much point whining about it, so I'll just leave those thoughts to rot and move on.

I'm now 17. I don't feel older, nor do I feel wiser, but I do think I've changed. I think a lot more about people and less about situations, and I have come to take pride in my leadership, and not just wear it as a badge or burden. I think I'm coming to terms as having a role in my society, and not just a passerby who criticizes the deplorable state the world is in now. I'm involved and I can do something; its just that having the superhero syndrome of wanting to change the world is not always a good thing.

Perhaps I am starting to understand what it means to grow up. Perhaps Im just a bit dazed tonight. Its strange, to think about yourself. To think of yourself in relation to others, to feel like your connected and yet your not. I want to talk philosophy, and yet I want to speak of carefree nothings at the same time too. Contradictions.

I know this post seems a bit emo still, but I already post my brainlessly happy things on facebook, and I just want a space to be quiet and muse for a while.

Perhaps I should take off that tagboard. Its a bit odd to have answers to rhetorical questions.