Migration

To http://toxicoctopus.blogspot.com/

Materialism

Monochrome dreams

The camera Sin Series

Despair

Wrath

Greed

Sloth

Philosography

Moving on

Handing over my pride and joy, my CCA soon.

Don't think I've been a very good president, but it makes me a bit sad nonetheless.

Because for now and I hope for a long time to come, photog has been and will be, my family. (:

Hip to be Old

Off to try some film photography. Seems like fun!

CANT SHAKE THIS FEELING

Of being incredibly, insanely, astronomically happy.



Its been an insane few days. I've had my GP paper, a photography field trip to Clarke Quay with my juniors, SAJC photographic Society's first-ever camp at Pasir Ris, and studying, all to tackle at once.



I dont think I have ever been this busy, and I dont think its going to get any easier.



My parents are off to Spain next week, so it looks like I'm going to be in charge of the house while they are gone. Block Tests also resume next week, so with any luck I wont fail too miserably.



And if I do fail miserably, then too bad. I am going to enjoy my free Thursday and Friday next week , and am going to watch H is for Hantu with Shameera and whoever else manages to go with us as well. To hell with worrying over my results. I'll save that for next year.

Just shootin' around

Sajc photoggggg <3

Shooting around SAJC after dark is fun. Taken on the way to the MRT.

"THINK HAPPY"

Chinese new year

Because I am a lazy ass that cannot be bothered to write coherent blog posts anymore, I will just upload photos.








Gong Xi Fa Cai Y'all. (:

BOO.

Hello 2011! You sure took a long time to come. 2010 was a rough year, and for some strange and unfathomable reason, I'm glad your here.

You know, I don't really like change. It took me ages to adjust to growing up from secondary school and moving on to JC, and quite frankly, I still sometimes delude myself into feeling that graduation was just yesterday, not months and months ago, and things were still lounging around placidly in my comfort zone. But their not, so I wake up and move on. I hope that this year around I'll be able to cope with things more maturely, and I wish to apologize to the old year for being a bloody asshole most of the time.

I am older, but as cliche as it is, I am certainly still not wiser. (Its funny how that phrase has become cliche both ways over the years.) I've been to many places across the globe over the course of my holidays, and much more so this year, but instead of feeling more worldly and educated, I've actually seen that what I know is nothing, and that there will always be so much more to learn. If you could be so kind, 2011, I'd like to keep that attitude, and I hope your siblings after you would let me keep it alive for a long time to come.

2010 was a year of learning I guess. I learnt a lot of things about myself and society in general, and I don't think that's going to stop anytime soon. I'd like to think that I've mellowed down, and that I am a bit more capable of thinking things through and not just rushing in with headlong force like what I usually do. There were a lot of walls in my way last year, and quite frankly I am quite tired of banging my head against them.

Tomorrow, the day after and the coming months are full of potential. I will be taking A levels, my 2nd blackbelt dan grading, becoming a senior and stepping down from my presidential position in my CCA, and hopefully conquer any emotional demons that will be thrown my way in the near future. I kind of feel old and inexperienced at the same time while writing this, and its a bit frightening.

Ah well. There isn't a logical reason to be frightened of the future... we cant really predict it, and if the future was an animal, it should be more scared of us that us of it. We have the ability to do so much, tear it down, make it shine, ruin or make it.

I'm going to try and do a Nat-Geo like post next time about my Vietnam trip. But till then, to anyone reading this, I hope your 2011 will be fantastic and full of (good) surprises. I wish you all luck and laughter, as well as some courage to face whatever it is the future holds for us.

Welcome to the world, 2011. I hope that we can be good friends.

and after weeks of silence, I say

Merry Christmas, you guys. (:

A WILD SNORLAX APPEARED

Hello guys! It's been a while. I apologize for this sudden unannounced hiatus but I have been struck down by this great bout of lazyness. Its a bit odd; I don't really think I'm depressed, and I don't think this complete lack of motivation to do anything but sleep really stems from anything. I think I'm just really, truly, 100% becoming very lazy.

It's quite interesting actually. I think this lack of motivation to do anything kind of stems from being bloody tired of trying to live up for other people. I've been pushing myself to do things for others, but not really doing anything for fun. I mean, I've even kind of lost interest in photography (I think especially because I get called up to do the most inanely boring and stupid events).

So, in a little effort to try and stop being a doormat, I have returned to blogging! Hooray. This actually seems a bit sad actually, because as much as I smile and laugh with others outside the virtual world, when I get home and I sit by myself in front of my work, I suddenly feel so damn pointless. That is ironic though, because I feel overused in other things. To have purpose or no purpose? That should be the question.

But feeling pointless makes you pointless, so in order to avoid pointlessness, I shall make a point. What that point is I have no idea as of yet, but I am feeling pretty good right now blogging instead of wasting my time trawling facebook or staring blankly at a textbook. Its a small rebellion against stoning via surfing, and its not as productive an activity as I would logically like, but it will do.

Life hasn't been all that interesting for me to blog about, even though I am in the midst of preparing for the incredible lit/GP combined London trip. I'm leaving next week, and I haven't packed my day-pack, although I have finished getting my mother's approval for my suitcase contents. Unfortunately, my mother threw out half my wardrobe in the process, declaring that if I got any more scruffy clothes, she may abandon me in some street corner in a bid to pass me off as a homeless savage.

JOLLY GOOD

Imma heading off to London on the lit/GP combined trip.
>:3

Ridiculous time wasting!

Hello everyone! Its been a while, and I'm not too sure if anyone still comes here anymore, but hey, its good to be rid of promos. Thank you everyone for your concern, and yes, I am a lot happier now. (: I am a lot less angry, a lot less depressed and a lot less attention-seeking. With any luck, I'll stay that way till at least next year. I want to do so many things now- I want to explore, to create, to learn and to experience. I want to do something big like have my very own kitchen photoshoot, and maybe do something crazy like go to somewhere near on an impromptu trip, maybe somewhere like Cameron Highlands or Bintan or maybe even Jakarta just for the heck of it. Perhaps a day-trip to KL, to shoot some real streets, or maybe even just across the causeway to eat durians and feel vaguely threatened because there are actual robbers there. I dont know yet.

Seeing as I'm not really full of experiences to blog about yet, I'll post my post-promos to do list here. Lets see if I can get through some of them before January comes rolling around.

1. Kitchen photoshoot. With real light diffusers and remote-controlled flash borrowed from the SAJC photog society. Objective: Get that wonderful photo for my parent's 50th birthday, and get used to studio photography.
2. Go Kayaking.
3. Build a sculpture out of aluminum cans. Crushing them does not count.
4. Go to Pulau Ubin. Be a child of the tropics once again.
5. Fly a kite at the Marina Barrage. Make and design own kite beforehand.
6. Watch The Lord Of The Rings and Dily's place. Try not to die from sitting still for 10 hours.
7. Eat eggs with non-veggie obsessed friends while veggie-obsessed friends go to veggieburger.
8. Shoot at the riverside one night, perhaps with a tripod.
9. Plan awesome photographic society chalet and field trips.
10. Go cycling/to the beach.
11. Eat souffle baked by other people.
12. Plan awesome webshow - to be done with Dilys.
13. Meet up with all the awesome SCGS people whom I miss very much - planning underway with Shun Jing.
14. Complete a 1000 piece jigsaw.
15. Plan grand post A-levels Europe trip.
16. Read more classic books. Become smarter.
17. Train for upcoming 2nd Dan blackbelt grading. Get Official coaching license.
18. Sleepovers?
19. Learn how to play the harmonica.
20. Try some serious shirt design.
21. Sleep more.
22. Beef up photography portfolio.
23. Plan a charity project for the photographic society to undertake.
24. Improve spelling.
25. Beat bejewled scores on facebook.
26. Try some film photography.
27. Clean room.
28. Go birding with my father.
29. Learn how to avoid being put in a dress.
30. Have fun.

WAVIN' YOUR FLAG

THEY CALL ME FREEDOM
JUST LIKE WHEN PROMOS END

SO NOW I CAN SLACK
SO NOW I CAN SLACK
SO NOW I CAN-

Thinking.

To think is to know, to know is to understand, and to understand is to embrace. I hate this slump that I've been in permanently since June, and honestly, every time I tell myself its getting old, it gets worse. I feel lost, adrift at sea, and when I do come to shore, its to do things that I have to do, not that I want to do. I can't bring myself to feel interested in much anymore, and honestly, I think thats the saddest part of it all. I just want to have some time to myself, away from the responsibilities and expectations that continuously nip at my heels, aways from the irritating rat race we all run with its persistently pounding pop music and material fantasies. I want to just sit somewhere and just enjoy the fact that I'm there, not because I have to do something. I want to just be able to breathe on a hot glaring day and roast my skin off, to feel that yes, I belong here, and yes, nothing will ever change.

The probability of that happening is near zero though. At least for the next three weeks or so.

Lets get this over with, promos.

Tis that time of year again

Where we stress, mug and generally get thumped around by exams.

Then we stop and think a while, and then we realize that theres more to life than tests.



Its about us too.

The human voice

This made me smile, and touched something in me that hasn't seen the light of day for a while.

I would love to do something like this.

I will hopefully be more coherent and reflect on this more tomorrow. Its back to the books for now.

This is why I wished I took arts

HISTORYYYYYYYYYYYYY <3

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